Who is the author of your life?
Who are you letting write your story?
I am using these quiet holiday days to complete the writing of our story of the last six years with a daughter with brain cancer. It is not an easy task, many tears have flowed. Even six years later, there is grief on so many different levels to process. But every time I write I am reminded of all God has done in these six years and I understand more and more that Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith.
Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily en-snares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2 NKJV
I am understanding more and more that as much as these six years have been a 'cancer journey', they have more importantly been a 'Jesus journey'. A journey of growing in faith and love for our Heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. It has been one of those seasons written about in The Bible in the Book of James,
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colours. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way. James 1:2-4 The Message
Thankfully Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith. He shows us how to live that faith-life. We just have to be a willing participant, seeking Him and keeping our focus on Him. And when we waiver, He is there, ready to help guide us back to His ways, receiving His forgiveness and pressing on in His grace.
If you don't know what you doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who "worry their prayers" are like wind-whipped waves. Don't think you're going to get anything from the Master that way, adrift at sea, keeping all your options open. James 1:5-8 The Message
"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out - plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. When you come looking for me, you'll find me. Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." GOD's decree. Jeremiah 29:11-14a The Message