For now

For now we are looking in a mirror that gives only a dim (blurred) reflection [of reality as in a riddle or enigma], but then [when perfection comes] we shall see in reality and face to face! Now I know in part (imperfectly) but then I shall know and understand fully and clearly, even in the same manner as I have been fully and clearly known and understood [by God]. 1 Corinthians 13:12 AMP

For now, we don't have perfect knowledge and understanding. The Message bible puts it this way,

We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a midst. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! 1 Corinthians 13:12 The Message

For now, we need to trust that God does have that perfect knowledge and understanding. We need to accept that,

The secret things belong unto the Lord our God, but the things which are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law. Deuteronomy 29:29

For now, we need to accept the truth that there are secret things that the Lord alone knows. But we always need to be open and ready to hear what He does want to reveal to us.

But when He, the Spirit of Truth (the Truth-giving Spirit) comes, He will guide you into all the Truth (the whole, full Truth). For He will not speak His own message [on His own authority]; but He will tell whatever He hears [from the Father; He will give the message that has been given to Him], and He will announce and declare to you the things that are to come [that will happen in the future].

He will honor and glorify Me, because He will take of (receive, draw upon) what is Mine and will reveal (declare, disclose, transmit) it to you. John 16:13-14 AMP

The challenge comes when we want to understand the why, and we don't. We feel disappointed, let down, possibly devastated and may be even abandoned. Resentment can build up within our hearts. And guess what, it is really difficult to hear what God is wanting to reveal to us when we are focused on the 'why'. We have to let our need to understand the 'why' go, and focus on the 'Who' - our God - who fully and clearly knows and understands us. And always has.

My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colours] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery]. Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them. How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Psalm 139:15-17 AMP

Question for today, how are you going with accepting those things that are secret to the Lord, the things that you want the answer to 'why' on? If it is challenging for you, as it is for me some days, why not take some quiet time today to sit with God, and ask Him to help you to trust that He knows and understands all, and that it is okay that we don't. Ask Him to help you move to that deeper level of trusting Him in all things and have peace about the things we don't understand.

The secret [of the sweet, satisfying companionship] of the Lord have they who fear (revere and worship) Him, and He will show them His covenant and reveal to them its [deep, inner] meaning. Psalm 25:14 AMP